North or South?

Im in the center of the world, then people surrounding me.
Crowd, but peaceful. And lovely and cheerful. Easy to find a perfect life here.
But my place of stand, was shaked just now.
I have to choose, that I exactly known I cant.
Like North and South, Im contaradictive. I cant imagine, what will happen.
I cant stand strongly, and Im bleeding inside. Coz Im lying to my self, and its cruel for me. North and South. Never ever I choose the one.